This week...

Well this week was my first week of student teaching. I had staff development monday, tuesday, and wednesday. School started yesterday. Well lets just say yesterday was a long difficult day. The premade seating arrangement did not work at all in one part of the room. The back group had talking problems all day long. So today we seperated 'em all out and things were a lot better. There were still some problems but way less than yesterday.

Next week I'm still at 0% but the following week I take up 20% which she figured out to be morning work (lunch choices, attendance, calendar time, etc) and morning explorations (science and/or social studies activities that go along with the later science and social studies activities. The next week I'll do the same and then add another subject and being in charge of them during recess. The following week I continue to add more stuff....so yea it's gonna be a long semester.

The thing I don't really like is I don't feel like I actually live on campus anymore. I only went to dinner one night in the cafeteria this week. I feel like I haven't really seen anybody this week. I barely get to see my roomates, I have to get up really early, and don't get home till after 5 in the afternoon. Then I only get to hang out a few hours then I have to head to bed or I'll be dead tired the next day. I really haven't gotten to hang out with many of my other friends either. Most of them have been really busy and I haven't seen them in a few weeks. I miss just relaxing and hanging out with them. I guess this all is just a sign of moving into the real world. I mean my semester hasn't even really gotten started yet. It's only going to get more stressful.

Well me and a bunch of friends are heading to spartanburg tomorrow morning to help jaime and william do some work in their house they are remodeling. Then we're heading back here to SWU tomorrow afternoon. I really need to get some stuff done and do some studying for my Praxis II test I have to take in just a couple of weeks.

I'll be glad when I actually get into a daily routine in the classroom and feel as though I know what is going on and what will happen next. I will be glad when we can get our class under control and they actually listen. I'll be glad when I have several big projects behind me and can just enjoy being in the classroom.

I had a pretty good birthday yesterday. I had several friends wish me a great day and I really appreciate it. I had to go to school all day but then the roomies through me a little surprise bday party. Then of course i had to go to bed again.

Well I think that is all for now... maybe I'll blog again soon :) bye all

Random...

I feel old! All of my friends are either getting married, getting engaged, having kids, in serious relationships, have full-time jobs, or are moving far away. It's scary. Everyone around me is entering the "Real World". I know I am next. It all sort of freaks me out. I thought I was ready for the real world but what if I'm not? I'm not sure if I'm ready to be a teacher in a few months, I'm not sure if I can handle all that pressure, stress, and everything. I have seen what this new pressure has done to people. I have seen it confuse them to the point where they have no clue what they want in life and ending up throwing everything away in search of "something".

My recent relationship change has thrown me for a whirlwind too.. I went from being 100% sure I had found my match to not knowing anything. I thought I knew everything about this person but I ended up realizing I was only fooling myself. Now I'm worried that I will miss it when my true one comes along. How will I ever trust myself to fall for another and believe that he is the one meant only for me? How will I convince myself that it is real and not another "Illusion of the heart". How will I ever trust myself to fully love again? How will I convince myself to give all of me to "him"? Won't I be afraid he will leave too?

I'm ready to find that one...that one made only for me. The one who will be a daily encourager. The one who will tell me whats on his mind no matter if it hurts at the moment. The one who will make me feel special and loved and safe and happy. The one who will be a protector. The one who won't mind playing around and having fun but also know how to be serious and tell me whats on his mind. The one who will love me no matter what life throws our way. My life has taken many different twisted paths.. I thought you were my destination yet you turned out to be only a detour on my broken road... Now I have to patiently wait for God to lead my broken road to My One True Soul Mate... ~*~*Patiently Waiting~*~*

Man it's been a while...

I can't believe it's been almost 2 years since I've posted! I kinda forgot about this thing but I'm bored and we know where boredom leads..lol... Now where to start... A lot has happened in two years... hmmmm I'll make a list:

* I've finished two more years at SWU
* I was engaged but God had other plans.. so I'm currently single and waiting for my "One" to come along
* I'm a Super Senior at SWU (5th semester)
* I graduate in December!
* I start student teaching this month at J.N. Kellett Elementary
* I will probably get a job in either Pickens or Oconee County (I am more connections down here than Spartanburg county)
* I am going to be living in the apartments this semester with Kim Fowler and Tasha Ross and a new girl..exciting!
* I am scared to death of student teaching...I don't wanna screw some kids up!
* I have a ton due this semester and soon!
* I have student teacher orientation next week
* SWU starts the 21st

Ok...thinks thats a pretty good start.... more to come later!

Bye All