Stresses in my life...
Don't you hate it when everything seems to pile up all at once? And when you finally get something accomplished and want to celebrate you only realize it was barely a drop in the bucket compared to all you have to do. You can celebrate all of 5 seconds and then move onto the next project.
This is how I've felt a lot lately. Student Teaching has gotten me down. I seem to be stressed all the time. I don't have a social life. If I do hang out with friends I feel as though I get even farther behind. But I've gotten to the point lately where I don't even feel like doing this junk anymore. I miss my old happy free-spirited life. I don't like this so called "adulthood". It stinks! I don't like all this pressure and stress. I just don't feel like I've been myself for weeks. I can't wait until I can relax and have fun again. I'll be glad when I don't have to plan several weeks in advance, type of 3 page lesson plans all the time, study (bc as it turns out I never really learned the stuff I have to teach now), go to bed early, get up crazy early, etc. I feel like I've been in a fog. I smiled the other night and my bf said "I think that's the first time you have smiled in weeks." While that's not completely true its pretty durn close.
I just want to say I'm sorry to all my friends you have been through student teaching. I'm sorry I never understood why ya'll were so stressed out and not yourselves. ST puts a huge strain on all facets of your life. It often makes you depressed and you don't feel like doing anything. I'm sorry if I put anymore stress in your lives....this is an experience you can't truly understand until you go through it...so to my friends I'm sorry...I can't wait to see the other side of this stressful situation!!! Only 3 months left!!! (and only 2 of those months are Student teaching!!!) yay!!!!
The one thing I really miss is not having someone around all the time thats been through what I'm going through. Sometimes its good to vent to someone who's been there. While I can vent to other they can't truly understand. I really miss having my close friends here who have gone through this.....
I think that's all for now....maybe more to come later
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This is how I've felt a lot lately. Student Teaching has gotten me down. I seem to be stressed all the time. I don't have a social life. If I do hang out with friends I feel as though I get even farther behind. But I've gotten to the point lately where I don't even feel like doing this junk anymore. I miss my old happy free-spirited life. I don't like this so called "adulthood". It stinks! I don't like all this pressure and stress. I just don't feel like I've been myself for weeks. I can't wait until I can relax and have fun again. I'll be glad when I don't have to plan several weeks in advance, type of 3 page lesson plans all the time, study (bc as it turns out I never really learned the stuff I have to teach now), go to bed early, get up crazy early, etc. I feel like I've been in a fog. I smiled the other night and my bf said "I think that's the first time you have smiled in weeks." While that's not completely true its pretty durn close.
I just want to say I'm sorry to all my friends you have been through student teaching. I'm sorry I never understood why ya'll were so stressed out and not yourselves. ST puts a huge strain on all facets of your life. It often makes you depressed and you don't feel like doing anything. I'm sorry if I put anymore stress in your lives....this is an experience you can't truly understand until you go through it...so to my friends I'm sorry...I can't wait to see the other side of this stressful situation!!! Only 3 months left!!! (and only 2 of those months are Student teaching!!!) yay!!!!
The one thing I really miss is not having someone around all the time thats been through what I'm going through. Sometimes its good to vent to someone who's been there. While I can vent to other they can't truly understand. I really miss having my close friends here who have gone through this.....
I think that's all for now....maybe more to come later
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posted by Maria Lowe @ 7:08 PM
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